Handling the Heards

If my life was a reality television series the ratings would have been through the roof this weekend.  It all started on Thursday morning when we went in for Andrew’s biopsy. Two hours into surgery, the doctor told us he was unable to drill into the bone marrow.  The wind was completely knocked out of our sails.  Word on the street was that getting an appointment at M.D. Anderson would take two to three weeks.  Waiting three weeks was just not acceptable to me!  I felt the weight of the world was on my shoulders to get Andrew an appointment ASAP.  I networked hard core and got many great leads.  By Friday morning, we ended up setting an appointment with one of the best oncologists in the world (for this Tuesday).  This was the best news we had gotten in weeks!

Friday afternoon I was  physically and emotionally spent from trying to get Andrew an appointment. Between trying to be there for my husband and trying to occupy my one year old daughter I was reaching a level of anxiety that wasn‘t healthy.  It’s amazing how intuitive kids are.  Ellie hasn’t started to talk a lot, but she understands most of what is going on.  She senses our anxiety from the situation and seems to act out because of it.

I know I drove my husband nuts with my intense passion to get an appointment, because he sat me down and made me take a Xanax.  Side story, I went to pick up the Xanax from the pharmacy a few days ago and the pharmacist asked me the following question, “So what are you so stressed about? School?” I proceeded to tell her that my 29 year old husband could possibly be dying of lung cancer and that we had a 1 year old baby.  She looked at me completely shocked.  Note to self, don’t assume you know what people are going through based on looking at them.

Friday evening, my best friend in the whole world drove up with her husband from Dallas to spend the weekend with me and Andrew.  My amazing parents took Ellie home with them to give us a break.  Andrew and I were excited to have a weekend with our friends to help get our minds off of the chaos.  Saturday afternoon, we took them to a great restaurant in Victoria that overlooks the river (shout out to The Pump House).  We saw a movie and the boys played golf.  I showed my friend around Cuero and we cooked a tasty and healthy dinner.

After dinner, we decided to watch a movie.  I suggested we get a comedy because I desperately needed to laugh.  A few months ago the movie Bridesmaids was on TV and it was love at first sight.  Melissa McCarthy cracks me up in that movie.  My friends had never seen it and were excited about watching it.  My friend and I decided to go pick up the movie.  As we were driving, we came up on a four way stop.  It was my turn to go and as I drove off an SUV rammed into my car.  I  was so nervous that my friend was hurt because the SUV hit on her side.  Luckily everyone was ok, but I couldn’t believe it happened.  Let‘s just say it‘s been a rough couple of weeks.  I keep telling myself that things can only go up from here.

Well, the story ends well because my friend, who was much more of a trooper then me, was determined to watch Bridesmaids. We hopped into her car, picked up the movie, watched it and laughed until we cried.  Lesson: life is full of surprises, some good and some bad, be grateful for the things that are good and handle the bad with grace believing that both have a greater purpose and lesson.  Love and blessings.